I totally understand the holiday blues. It's hard being in a foreign country, even if you like that country, for the important holidays. I had no problem with hot Christmases living in Arizona and California, but as soon as I was out of the country it was different. When I was stationed in Spain, my daughter was living in Germany and I'd go visit her there. Even with the snow, it just didn't feel the same. It wasn't home. I liked learning about how different countries celebrate Christmas, it was fun to see it from a different perspective, but there were moments when it was all just too strange in it's familiarity, too. Very cognitively dissonant. So, just saying, don't feel bad for feeling bad. It happens.