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 After my post of frustration yesterday, I googled "albuquerque birth center" (since that's where my parents live) and the first link was to an awesome looking/sounding birth center where the midwives will either come to you, or you can use their birth center.  And they take insurance.  I just wanted to cry because it sounds exactly like what I want.

But if I go that route, it almost guarantees Joe won't be there.  I suspect that would be fine with him (he's not home and we haven't talked much since he's pretty busy on his trip), but I know what an amazing experience it was and I think he would want to be there if he knew.  But he's wanted our baby born outside Puerto Rico from the beginning.

The whole thing just makes me mad.  I have two health insurance plans, both of which are pretty good.  I should be able to find a situation in which I can be comfortable and have my baby and yet have a safe back-up option if necessary.  Territory or not, I'm still in the US.  When I'm the most frustrated, I just imagine bending over, having them do the epidural, and just have the baby their way.  And I could accept that, but then I have to put up with 2-3 days in a substandard hospital with limited visiting hours and limited access to my baby and no 3rd party (husband or someone else) who can stick around and be my advocate.  Three days away from Ellie when she could be bonding with the baby seems so wrong.

I need to talk to Joe, I guess.  I suspect he will be all for me going to stay with my parents for a few weeks and will do his best to fly out as soon as I'm in labor.  As for him missing the birth, I guess we will just have to have a 3rd baby so he can hopefully be there for that one.

We Are All Okay

Ellie and I were hit by an oncoming car tonight on the way home.  Thankfully, he hit a siderail first, meaning that when he hit us, he hit the car on the driver's side.  Once I realized there was nothing I could do, I managed to look over my shoulder to see Ellie.  It dind't look like she got shaken too badly.  I love my Honda - the hit was hard but solid.  There was no real jerk but more of a hit. 

THe guy was super sorry and even more so when he saw Ellie and then even more so when he saw I was pregnant.  Speaking of the baby, as far as I know, everything is fine.  No pain, no contractions, and no bleeding.  In the best of circumstances, I can't see going to the ER.  However, I can feel my back and neck stiffening as I speak.  I have a midwife appointment tomorrow and I'll probably go to my regular doctor after that, just to be safe.  Of course, Joe is in Georgia until tomorrow night.

The one good thing in all this was that my friend C was able to come get me pretty quickly.  She and her daughter entertained Ellie for the 2 hours it took the cops and tow truck to arrive.  I drove my car home after the guy who hit me changed my tire.  I'm not driving it anywhere else.  It's not aligned, one of the doors doesn't close properly and random lights keep going on.  Joe will help me resolve the thing on Friday. 

Maybe more details tomorrow....it's not Ellie's bedtime and she has not even had dinner yet.