Progress Report

So, some of you may remember that I few weeks ago, I posted something about not being alone ever again?

I think I sorta miss that part of my life. The last week has been harder than I would have expected. Believe it or not, the hardest part for me has been recovering from the physical aspects of labor. I'm sore and I'm tired of feeling so gross. None of my clothes fit right and it's 97 degrees out. It all makes me not want to leave the house at all.

At the same time, I really want to get out of the house. I have done nothing this week but feed Ellie, change her, try to sleep when she will let me, and browse the Internet. Right now, she is sound asleep on my lap as I'm typing. She is so beautiful and peaceful looking. But I am craving my regular life - even if it involves studying for the bar exam. I miss having a routine.

Also, having Joe here is great, but stressful too. He thinks he will have to spend 6 months in Kuwait next April (he will be back from Iraq in Nov) although now he's hearing maybe not. Anyway, we got through the initial awkwardness of not having seen each other in 7 months, but it's hard to relate as new parents. I feel this tremendous pressure to make everything as good as possible for the next week while he's here, but Ellie has to come first. I know he understands intellectually, but I'm not sure he gets it emotionally. Plus, this is his only 2 weeks off in an entire year. He has worked every day since he left. I'd like his visit to include lots of uninterrupted sleep and fun stuff to do together. But, see above for why this is hard.

Anyway, I know it will get easier.