A shock

I just got a facebook message from my friend's wife that he died in a car accident yesterday.  My age, three kids ages 5-12.  We were buddies in Korea.  I had a huge crush on him when we met but over time, we became close friends.  He lives just a bit south of us but I hadn't seen him in years.  We had tried to get together a few times but he was sick or we were sick, or he and Joe were travelling, etc.

I'm now kicking myself for not seeing him.  He came to see me the day Joe deployed the first time.  I looked awful - I'd eaten pounds of chocolate and was wearing old yucky sweats, but he cheered me up.  We closed down many clubs in Korea back in the day.  I'm so sad for his wife and children but I'm sad for me too.  His death doesn't change the past, but it does sort of end it.